When will this all be over? I dont really want anyone else to feel this way but if humanity really understood what it was like maybe they would improve the situation. It seems beyond cruel and unusual torture and I dont know why we need to be punished in this way. Why do we have to suffer? Both people at the UKBA seemed to speak to me as though I was dirt on the bottom of their shoe. Where do they get these people from (no humanity, no fellow feeling)?

Gosh I look old. I have found myself wondering what I would do if something happened to you and then I thought about the people who leave their old lives and become tramps and beggers. You hear tell of people who disconect from their lives and stat a new one on the streets. I am missing you greatly. Missing just having you with me. I dont want to do anything. I am finding it difficult to be motivated to do anything or find joy in anything. I feel so low at times. I try to keep myself cheered up but it is difficult. Everything just goes on around me and I am conscious that no one relly understands the pain I am going through except you. I saw the girl who I met when I was coming out to Pakistan and she asked how it had been. I had forgotten that it was her that I had seen. Which again proves how old I am getting. My memory is falling away. All I can do is feel an ache constantly in my stomach/heart.
Love you.

Good luck later today with your English test. Feeling lonely.

Love you honey.

8:50 I have just woken up and a text has come wending its way from you. I wonder how it travels all that way and what direction it takes to get from your phone to mine. That had really got me thinking.
I love you

I wonder what you had said to me here. Maybe it was, 'Can I drop you here?'

Missing you as ever. I don't want to play any more - this situation with you in one country and me in another.